Fangirl.

So... this is how I spent my yesterday:

- Read Dollhouse forums on plot theories and character analysis.
- Read the entire script for the original pilot.
- Watched the Dollhouse Comic Con panel.
- Read interviews and watched every "web exclusive" video.
- Scoured IMDB to get to know each of the actors better.
- Saved pictures onto my computer.

I guess that means I have officially crossed over into full fandom with Dollhouse.

I think there are several reasons why I am pouring my fangirl energy onto this particular show. One, because it's Joss Whedon and I too live in Jossverse more often than not. So it's part nostalgia and sentimentality, I'm sure. Two, I just really like the story. I would take the show in book form in a heartbeat. Joss Whedon always has a story to tell and they are always stories about people - the nature of human desire, identity, ethics of technology, the heroine... I want to know where the story of this show goes. I love that he has this five-year plan; that he sees all of that at once. This show is an underdog, but that's how it seems to go. I'll be watching!

On another fangirly topic: in my Human Diversity class, we each signed up to do an autobiographical presentation of a book. I chose "She's Not There" by Jennifer Boylan, which is a story about Jenny's journey and transition of being born a man but coming out as the woman she always was. I saw her on Oprah a few years ago. That was the first time I was ever exposed to the issues of transsexuality.

In preparing for my readings of the book, I youtube'd the author to see what sort of visual aid I could find. Lo and behold, I found videos of her reading from the very book. Which then led me to her website/blog. Which led me to her Twitter. I decided to let the internet be a crazy place of bringing me to people so I started following her. A few days later, she decided to follow me back! I messaged her and told I was going to be reading from her book and she told me "Good luck". What a funny little world, right? I feel like I'm (quasi) friends with a celebrity!

I chose various excerpts that I felt represented her as a whole. While it is her story of being transgendered that she is trying to tell, she is all at once so much more than just a man who became a woman. She's a parent. A professor. A writer. I'm going tomorrow and I'm nervous, maybe more so now because I've had contact with her. Eep!

Yeah, I'm a fangirl. What can I say, I get really excited over things.